On a gray morning this spring, Chelsea Manning climbed into the back seat of a black S. U. V.
And instructed the security guard to drive her to the nearest Starbucks.
A storm subsided over Manhattan, and Manning, dressed in bulky black Doc Martens, was prepared for the weather with an umbrella and a shape --
Black dress.
Her legs are bare and her eyes are gray and blue.
She made a little makeup: eyeliner, a stain on the pink lip gloss.
At Starbucks, she ordered a white one.
Chocolate Mocha retreated to a nearby stool.
Manning has been very small (5 foot 4)
But in the last months of the American discipline camp in Leavenworth, she jogged religiously, outside the prison yard, on the track of the prison gymnasium, and her body had become clear, it is evident from the definition of her arms and cheekbones.
She looks healthy and, if a little uncomfortable, as is often done by people who have served a long time in prison.
She served seven years at 35 and was released just eight days ago. year sentence.
Even after the event, her crime was striking: about 250,000 US diplomatic cables were submitted to WikiLeaks, as well as about 480,000 military reports from the wars in Afghanistan and Iraq.
The disclosures cleared the way for Edward Snowden, raising Julian Assange\'s profile, who was little known outside the hacker\'s circle at the time.
No Chelsea Manning\"J.
Assistant Secretary of State Crowley from 2009 to 2011 recently told me, \"Julian Assange is just another marginal actor who hates the arrogance of American hegemony.
\"To a very large extent, Manning\'s behavior, in the words of Denver Nick, author of a book in her case, represents\" the beginning of the outbreak of the information age \": in a new era when leaks become weapons, data security is crucial and privacy is considered illusory.
Manning was held in five different facilities in January 2017, in which case a United Nations expert known as \"cruel\" and \"inhuman\" was given the surprise of President Barack Obama
Four months later, she was free to try to adapt to the world she helped shape.
After drinking her coffee, she took out her iPhone from her wallet and gave the security guard a ride back to her apartment in Manhattan. The one-
The bedroom was sparsely furnished with a large glass table and a brown sofa, and Manning installed the Xbox One video oppositegame console.
Art is a variety of anodain motelan old-masters-
A canvas of a Zebra standing in a forest.
We had many floors, hung in the stormy clouds, and through the windows I could see the spires of skyscrapers on the other side of the Hudson River.
Manning, 29, knocked on an unplugged microwave next to the door and asked me to put my laptop in it: She explained that the Faraday cage in the microwave would block radio waves.
But the microwave, which is not plugged in, is full of devices, including two Xbox controllers.
Manning said: \"You can put it in the microwave oven in the kitchen;
Then she added with a shrug, \"You can\'t be too careful.
She recalled her last timeperson, on-the-
On 2008, on the occasion of marriage, a record interview was conducted with a journalist --
Equality Parade in New York
For nearly a decade after that, she was banned from communicating directly with the public by prison officials, and when her story was told in books, operas, she remained silent, an off-Broadway drama and countless magazine articles were written almost all before Manning became transgender.
\"It\'s not the whole story,\" she told me. \"my whole story.
In the absence of her own voice, a duel narrative appeared.
In the words of President Donald Trump, Manning is a \"ungrateful traitor \".
The other has positioned her as a cross-gender idol and a champion of transparency.
As former lawyer, author of a book on her case, Chase madall, recently told me, she is a \"secular martyr \".
But in front of Manning, both narratives felt impossible to simplify, especially since Manning himself was clearly still struggling to understand the meaning of what she had done seven years ago.
She became uneasy when I asked her to learn from her trip. “I don’t have. . . . ” she started.
\"Like, I \'ve been busy living for the last seven years, so I\'m not paying attention to that at all.
\"But, I stress to her that she must know something about her impact on the world.
\"From my point of view,\" she replied, \"the world has shaped me more than anything else.
This is a feedback loop.
\"As early as Chelsea Manning remembers, she was on the edge of the metro area in the city of Crescent, and in the early days of the new moon, she suffered a strong sense of dislocation, and she has been trying to define herself, not to mention her sister Kathy, and her parents Brian and Susan.
In one of our interviews, I mentioned that I heard a clinical psychologist compare gender anxiety to \"a huge cosmic toothache \".
Manning blushed.
In this way, she agreed: \"No matter where you are, in the morning, at night, at breakfast, at lunch, at dinner.
You go everywhere.
Manning recalled that at the age of five, she approached her father, an I. T.
Hertz\'s manager admitted that she wanted to be a girl, \"Do the girl thing.
Brian gave a long and awkward speech on the essential differences in the \"pipeline.
But Manning told me, \"I don\'t understand what this has to do with what you wear or what you do.
Soon she sneaked into her sister\'s bedroom and put on Kathy\'s sour clothes --
Jeans and denim jackets.
Sitting in front of the mirror, she would apply lipstick and blush, and with a gentle move from downstairs, she frantically washed away her makeup.
\"I want to be [Casey]
Live like her, \"said Manning.
When she was still in elementary school, she was gay for a straight boyfriend.
The friend is understanding;
There are not so many other children in the school.
Manning tried to recover her confession but failed.
\"One day I will cry and go home and if my dad is there he will say, \'Don\'t cry and cheer up.
She said, like, go back there and hit the child in the face.
That was the 1990 s when the trans-gender movement was marginalized in American society.
\"The thing I know best is from the description of drag --queen-style cross-
Manning told me to wear it on sensational TV shows like Jerry Springer.
She spends more time at home, playing video games and dabbling in basic code on the computer her father often takes home.
Her parents have their own problems.
When Manning was 12, Susan swallowed a whole bottle of stability.
Kathy called 911 and was told the nearest ambulance was half a car. hour away.
Kathy put her mother in the car.
Manning said Brian was drunk and couldn\'t drive, and he sat on a shotgun and left a frightened Chelsea behind to make sure her mother kept breathing.
She told me it was official.
\"I grew up soon after that,\" she said . \". (
Brian could not be reached for comment. )
In Susan\'s home town of Wales, Manning moved with her in 2001 after her parents divorced, and Chelsea said she had full control of the family, paid bills and handled most of the shopping.
There is also freedom there: she can buy her own makeup at the convenience store, wear it in public for a few hours, and then tuck it into the bin on her way home.
She spent many nights on her computer in Los Angeles. G. B. T. chat rooms.
Her world view has changed.
During the New Moon, Manning accepted the conservative politics of her father.
\"I asked nothing,\" she told me . \"
But at Tusk Milward, a school in the town of Haverford West, she studied the civil rights movement, the Red panic, and the detention of Japanese --
Americans during World War II
In a semester paper in a history class, she expressed doubts about the reasons for the US invasion of Iraq.
On 2005, Manning returned to the United States to live in the city of orrama with Brian and his new wife, who had changed a person, if not completely: she drew eyeliner and cut her hair black.
\"I think maybe I just want to eradicate this gender issue and keep it gender neutral, just like a double sex,\" she told me . \".
She found a job in an Internet company.
Through the dating site, she met her first boyfriend, who lives 70 miles from Duncan town.
But Manning said her stepmother had banned her from entering the kitchen: \"She didn\'t think I was clean.
Manning confided to anyone what she was getting more and more aware of: she was not gay or cross-cuttingdresser.
She\'s a woman.
In the summer of 2006, she parted ways with her boyfriend, who was shining forever from the city of orrama, and everything was piled up in the cab of her red Nissan pickup truck.
Followed by a tour.
To Tulsa in orcas.
Working in a pizza shop;
Work at the Chicago Guitar Center;
East to the suburbs of Washington living with her aunt, she and her aunt have never shared with their parents.
She had four conversations with a psychologist but was not closer to reducing her burden than with friends or family.
\"I\'m scared,\" Manning said . \"
\"I don\'t know life will be better.
He said: \"Brian Manning often tells Chelsea about his days in the Army with deep affection: it gives him structure and foundation.
Manning was not ready to listen. Now she was.
Enlistment could be something to \"cheer her up\" and get her out of the pain.
Moreover, although her thoughts on American foreign policy have become more subtle, she still considers herself a patriot --
In the Army, she can help her country with her analytical skills.
She told me, \"I remember sitting there in the summer of 2007 and turning on TV every day,\" and seeing news from Iraq.
\"Surge, surge.
Terrorist attacksInsurgents. . . .
I just think maybe I can make a difference.
\"In the fall of the same year, Manning received basic training at Leonard woodburg, oshaq, Missouri;
Within a few days, her arm was hurt.
\"The instructor acted like I was pretending to be sick,\" she said . \".
\"But I thought, \'No, I don\'t want to be free from anything.
I just can\'t feel my right hand.
A soldier with Manning in Missouri later recalled for the Guardian that Manning was often referred to as \"gay \".
\"The guy took it from all directions.
He can\'t please anyone. And he tried.
\"He did it,\" said the soldier . \".
The army needs more bodies to fight the insurgency in Afghanistan and Iraq, allowing Manning to shoot again at boot camp.
In 2008, she graduated from the Intelligence School in Fort HUAQIU, Arizona, and it felt like a community University to her.
There she was trained in classified military terms \"signature\" or major operations --
Written reports, photos and videos of confrontation, explosion and exchange of fire that constitute the mosaic of modern warfare.
Manning told me that she and the intelligence staff at Fort chucca had a good time sharing her inner charm.
\"More like --
\"Not \'Rah, rah, you need to do that,\" she added.
They encouraged us to speak out.
They encourage us to have opinions and make our own decisions.
\"At her first official duty station, Fort Drum in northern New York, Manning was accused of helping to build a digital tool that automatically tracks and classifies signatures from Afghanistan, manning\'s troops were initially expected to be deployed.
She watches spectrum night for hours every day.
Watch videos and reports from distant battlefields.
She has been exposed to bloodshed, which will be the source of inspiration for her leaks.
But she deals with the material on space and emotional reserves: she tells me that she is still \"eager\" to reach the front line. “I was hungry.
Through a gay dating site, she met a bookish Brandeis student named Taylor Watkins.
She started driving to Watkins in the Boston area, where she became a regular customer of the Massachusetts Institute of Technology pickup.
Visited the architecture of Boston University, the center of the local hacker community.
At the Pika party, she found friends who were as close to coding as she was: as an outlet, a pastime, and a phone call.
She often stays up late to chat late at night.
He was an undergraduate at MIT. I. T.
If \"nervous\", Manning remembers being \"obviously smart \".
Zhu made it very clear that Manning was \"plagued by something \".
But she never had a chance to know what it was: Manning\'s troops were deployed to Iraq that fall.
On October 2009, Manning jumped a Black Hawk from Baghdad and headed toward Hammer base, 30 miles east of the city.
In the cabin tied to a helicopter jump seat, she began naming places that have long been digital abstractions.
Manning recalled: \"I have seen images of 9 to 10 months before and I know the scenery so well from the air that I recognize the blocks and it wakes me up, see people walking around, see people driving, see buildings and trees below.
Surrounded by desert, low
Suspension building of FO. B.
The Hammer baked in summer, used mud in autumn.
At nine every night, Manning stood up from her bunk. m.
Wear standard clothes
Make a visual disguise and grab her rifle.
After a quick dinner at breakfast, she went to a sensitive compartment Information Facility (SCIF) to check in.
Manning\'s SCIF, located on the basketball court, is a prestigious \"plywood box\" with poor airflow.
She\'s sitting here for free.
She sat in her recliner chair and spent the night shift facing three laptops.
Manning\'s isolation has emerged in a new form: Hidden in the dark SCIF, she will work eight hours in a row and carefully read the reports submitted by the US military safely on the battlefield, make the original data of the elderly meaningful
Level of intelligence officer
Although she could hear the shaking of the car bomb, she sometimes met soldiers on their way back from the exchange of fire, dizzy and dusty.
At that time, Manning told me that she was too busy to take into account the greater importance she had seen.
\"Do my job and you can\'t even really read all the documents,\" she said . \".
\"You have to go through and find out what is relevant and what is irrelevant.
\"Nevertheless, to a very large extent, her role for the United States in Iraq is more comprehensive than the infantry on the battlefield --
Usually, actually, the skylevel view —
With the October into November she found own more and more depressed because public of this seems to be is in vain of, constantly Bloody of war lack of know.
\"At some point,\" she told me, \"I don\'t look at the records anymore and start looking at people\": bloody American soldiers, bullets
Iraqi civilians.
Manning accompanied senior officials for talks with the Iraqi military and the Iraqi federal police on rare probation by SCIF
Her ideals were further shattered.
\"There will be such a tea party, you have the Iraqi federal police in blue uniforms, you have the Iraqi army in old chocolate --
Chips disguise and Americans wearing our obscure green digital disguise, \"Manning said --
Everyone speaks different languages, often acrosspurposes.
\"I thought things were black and white when I came. They weren’t.
Manning told me that in 2008, she heard the name of WikiLeaks for the first time during her computer security training course in chucaberg, China.
By the end of 2009, she had begun to log in to the internet relay chat conversation dedicated to the site. (I. R. C.
The Semisecure protocol is the preferred communication method for hackers. )
Initially, she was an observer: she was interested in the work that Julian Assange and his team were doing, if they were not ready to support their argument about full transparency.
She told me that she believed at the time and now believed, \"there are a lot of things that should be kept secret.
\"Let\'s protect sensitive sources.
Let\'s protect the forces.
Let\'s protect nuclear information.
We should not hide our mistakes.
We should not hide the wrong policy.
Let\'s not hide history.
Let\'s not hide who we are, what we are doing.
\"She is getting closer and closer to acting, but she has not mentioned anything about I. R. C.
To her friend Channel in F. O. B.
Hammer, not her personal commotion.
She\'s trying to keep her life alive twice now.
Change the secret
She cannot openly discuss her identity: the policy of \"Don\'t Ask, Don\'t Say\" is still valid, and it will take a few years for transgender people to be allowed to openly join the army.
\"I watched TV on the internet frantically,\" she said . \"
\"I smoke very heavily.
I drank a lot of caffeine.
I\'m going to the restaurant to eat as much as I can.
Any tiny escape or feeling the way I\'m no longer there.
Her boyfriend couldn\'t help much, and Manning could feel him slipping away.
\"I denied it, but I have a feeling. . .
\"I was forgotten,\" she told me . \".
Manning twice.
It\'s a week\'s holiday.
She plans to be with Watkins in Boston and with her aunt in the suburbs of Washington.
She dreams of using this opportunity to be open to family and friends as transgender people.
She told me, \"I \'ve been thinking about this moment in my head, and I\'m just yelling at the top of my lungs.
But in her heart, she knew that she could never hold on.
Before leaving F. O. B.
Manning hammer downloaded almost all of the signature reports of the war in Afghanistan and Iraq from the government\'s Integrated Information Data Network Exchange and burned the compressed version of the data to the CD
One of the RW discs is called Lady Gaga.
\"She did so in the view of her fellow soldiers.
But what she did next violated the most important precepts she learned in chucaberg in China, and her oath of enlistment on 2007: she uploaded the contents of the disc to a personal laptop she planned to take home to the United States.
She has yet to decide how to handle the data.
A few days later, Manning wore a golden wig and ran out of the aunt\'s side door low, out of the neighborhood\'s sight, driving to the train station.
She was wearing a dark coat, under which it was business.
She bought casual clothes at a local department store;
She claimed it was for her friend who needed it during the interview.
In Washington, she went to Starbucks, had lunch at a busy restaurant, and hung out in the aisles of the bookstore;
Later, she climbed the subway and ran around it aimlessly.
She was happy to be seen because she knew she had passed so easily --
Few people take a second look at her.
\"I didn\'t have the guts until I deployed,\" Manning told me when she called herself Brianna privately.
But her experience in Iraq has changed her.
\"Reaching out to so many deaths every day will make you work hard to cope with your own deaths,\" she went on to say . \".
She doesn\'t want to hide anymore.
The expedition was the climax of the disappointing two. week leave.
The army took her from F. O. B.
Hammer and her family don\'t have time to readjust their schedule: Manning\'s aunt is traveling abroad and her sister has just had her first baby --
It\'s hard to get time for Chelsea.
Manning took the train to see Watkins at his home in Waltham, Massachusetts, but she couldn\'t get rid of the feeling that he didn\'t want her there, so she shortened her stay by three days.
At that time, Manning may return to Iraq with unshared files.
Her behavior is illegal if she can.
But Manning told me that my experience in the United States made me realize.
At home, she says, she realizes how invisible war is to most civilians, and their knowledge of Iraq extends to occasional newspaper articles or chyron on cable news.
\"There are two worlds,\" she said . \"
\"The world of America, the world I see [in Iraq]
She went on to say, \"I want people to see what I see.
A snowstorm hit Washington.
Manning\'s aunt hasn\'t come back yet.
Manning transferred some of the files to a small memory card alone and prepared an anonymous text file that she wanted to send with the message.
\"It may be our time to eliminate the fog of war and reveal 20-
She wrote: \"The asymmetric war of the first century.
\"Have a good day.
Manning told me that her decision to provide information to WikiLeaks was a practical one: she originally planned to provide data to the New York Times or The Washington Post, in the last week of her departure, she avoided the public phone, called the main office phone of the two newspapers, and left a message to the public editor of The Times, and have a frustrating conversation with a post author who says she has to learn more about these documents before her editor signs an article.
Due to the bad weather, she hastily arranged a meeting with Politico where she wanted to introduce herself to the website\'s security blog.
\"I want to try to make a connection in a way that can\'t track me,\" Manning told me . \".
But she\'s running out of time.
She described a clear sense of purpose: \"I need to do something,\" she told me.
\"I don\'t want anything to stop this. ”On Feb.
3,2010, Manning signs on her laptop and uses security files-
Transfer Protocol, send the file to WikiLeaks. Back at F. O. B.
Hammer, speed up time;
Everything seems to happen at the same time.
Manning has been away for two weeks and there\'s a lot to do
\"I have to double my work,\" Manning told me . \".
There was no indication that WikiLeaks had received her file or that the army knew something was wrong.
She remembers being in a state of extreme anxiety.
She slept less and smoked more. In mid-
On February, during a break at SCIF, she noticed an interesting thread on the WikiLeaks I. R. C.
Participants discussed the channel of Iceland\'s financial crisis --
Manning read the safe diplomatic Telegraph library she could get as an analyst, and her conclusions are continuing due to the inaction of the United States and what she calls diplomatic bullying in the Netherlands and the UK.
\"From my point of view, we don\'t seem to be involved due to the lack of long-term cooperation.
The geopolitical interests of doing so, \"she later testified.
Following previous steps, she leaked several diplomatic cables to Wikileaks related to the crisis in Iceland;
Within hours, the documents were released by WikiLeaks.
Manning is thrilled: If the telegram arrives at WikiLeaks, it is almost certain that the larger signature leak has also been successful.
Manning had a couple of me around this time. R. C.
After the author of the book \"Unfriendly Fire: How Gay bans undermine the army and weaken the United States,\" Manning called one \"nazarille Frank\" in her online address book \".
Although Manning refused to discuss the matter with me, Frank was almost certainly Assange --
Most chats are confidential and can be used in future legal proceedings against Assange.
Manning followed the transmission of SigActs and Icelandic cables, but it was difficult to ignore the leak.
The title of the WikiLeaks release is \"incidental murder\"year-
The old video, shot by a camera mounted on a US helicopter, shows that two gunships were reported in a group of small gunships approaching a group of people. arms fire.
Helicopter crew request permission multiple times“Let us shoot!
Someone heard a voice saying
Before receiving and firing.
At least a dozen people were killed in the 2007 attacks, including several civilians and two Reuters staff members.
Manning said she knew Reuters had asked the US government for a copy of the video under the Freedom of Information Act, but never received it.
She said it was a symptom of the worst impulse of a government obsessed with full classification.
\"Keeping some information secret for a few days, maybe a few years makes sense,\" she told me . \".
\"More and more problems are that everything is secret by default.
During the long chat, the relationship between Manning and Nasser Frank deepened.
She is passionate about the role of truth.
Detainee Assessment briefing for transfer to a small libraryA. B.
Detention facilities from the United States in Guantanamo Bay.
\"Living such an opaque life, forcing me to never take transparency, openness and honesty for granted,\" she wrote, former hacker Adrian Lamo, who Manning contacted as a confessor, manning does not know who has worked with government investigators.
However, she is going to be separated in private.
Army investigators investigating her case will then detail several episodes of what they call \"strange behavior,\" including a dazed gaze and the discovery of Manning on the floor of the supply room, the word \"I Want\" was engraved on a nearby chair.
She recalled that the whole unit was \"on the verge\" and oral debates and quarrels broke out.
Their deployment is coming to an end, \"and that\'s when people start to get tired of each other and personal hostility bursts.
On April, Manning sent an email to an officer with photos of Brianna she took while on vacation in Washington.
\"Now I know who I am,\" Manning told me . \".
\"But there are no people around me.
She titled the email \"my question \".
She wrote that her gender identity issue \"will not disappear \".
\"Now, the consequences of it are terrible. ” (
Manning said her captain confirmed she had received the email but \"swept it under the carpet. ”)
Manning told me that she had made up her mind to disclose her role as a whistle --
Although she was struggling with how to express her gender identity, she chose blower.
She has never been able to satisfy a method.
At the end of May, she was summoned to a conference room where two agents from the Army\'s Criminal Investigation Department were waiting.
Manning was scared, she recalled, but she tried not to show it: \"I was focused on my heart at the time: who I am and what my values are . \".
She\'s retreating. her]head.
A few days later, she was handcuffed and flown to the afejan camp in Kuwait, in a huge steel cage.
She knelt down and read the words engraved on the bar: Made in Fort Wayne.
Seven years later, the impact of the war logs in Afghanistan and Iraq or the diplomatic cables that were later published is still difficult to exaggerate.
\"These materials relate to almost every relationship in the United States around the world,\" former State Department official Crowley said of the cables.
The impact came quickly: US ambassador to Mexico, Carlos pasquar, resigned over a telegram he had expressed doubts about the effectiveness of Mexico\'s anti-drug war, a finding that poisoned Pasqual\'s relationship with the Mexican president.
Ambassador Gene Cretz was recalled from Libya after his Telegram detailed the special operation of the Col regime. Muammar el-
Gaddafi, including a team of Ukrainian female bodyguards.
About the cable release of Tunisian strongman Zine el-
Abidine Ben Ali is often seen as helping to spark the uprising in the country.
Afghan and Iraqi documents have made the two conflicts chaotic in the way Manning wanted them.
In an introduction, The Guardian wrote that material released from Afghanistan revealed a war in stark contrast to the \'public\' war of \'finishing and sanitizing, get a glimpse of this through the Official Gazette and a limited snapshot of embedded reports.
American officials caught off guard by the leak were furious.
State Department official Elizabeth Dible later testified that the release of the cable caused \"fear and suspicion that our diplomatic communications have been released and are available on public websites for the world to see.
\"The question of whether American interests are adversely affected by the release of cables remains a tricky one.
In the full text of the Afghan war log that appears on the WikiLeaks website, Julian Assange only made partial edits, leaving the names of some Afghans working with coalition forces. (
He showed the \"heavier hands\" of the \"edit\" name that CNN later described in the Iraq war log \". )
In 2010, Michigan Republican Congressman Mike Rogers said, \"We know that people may be killed because of this information being disclosed.
Subsequent comments by The Associated Press and maclach found that the risk was \"exaggerated\" and when Manning was sentenced, government witnesses testified that no American death could be attributed to leaks.
Nevertheless, Crowley said that the lack of evidence of death is not the same as the lack of harm: \"She burned many sources of intelligence,\" he said.
\"She put Afghans in danger and they told us what the Taliban did in their villages.
In her cage in Kuwait, Manning did not register any radiation.
\"I was completely isolated,\" she said . \"
At some point, she concluded, \"I have been forgotten and I have just disappeared.
\"She thought Lamo had reported her, but she was not sure if she had made public the news that she was involved in the leak.
This is the beginning of the hot season in Kuwait, where dust billows from the outside and falls on her teeth.
The only person she contacted was the guard who gave her the meal.
\"When I arrived at the detention center, I had told them that I was a trans,\" Manning told me . \".
\"I\'m a woman,\" I said. of-factly. They laughed.
Manning found himself completely isolated from anger and sadness.
Officials observed a episode of what Manning\'s lawyers said was \"shouting out of control, screaming, shaking, chattering, banging his head on the cell and mumbling.
Manning told me: \"I\'m afraid I\'ll be in that cell or something like that for the rest of my life.
I will encounter some bad things.
A week later, she made a condom with bedding and she told me that it was \"half-hearted\" of suicide \".
\"I know it won\'t work.
This brought to the attention of staff, and according to the medical assessment later obtained by Manning\'s legal team, a military doctor will diagnose anxiety, depression and \"possible gender identity disorder \".
She took an anti-depression drug that caused bleeding in her nose and severe nausea.
She can\'t eat.
Her skin eventually turned yellow.
At the end of July, four days after the Guardian and other newspapers published the Afghan Journal, Manning was handcuffed and boarded a charter flight.
Earlier, she said, the guards told her that she would be \"escorted to a Navy cruiser\" for months \";
Her entourage said she was going to Guantanamo.
On the way, the story changed for the last time: she was going to the naval base in Quantico, Virginia.
When she got there, she knew the world knew who she was.
\"You are Manning!
A heavyweight Marine said with enthusiasm.
Manning is everywhere on Fox News, he added.
When transferring Manning to Quantico, the government said it would provide Manning with facilities that would be more suitable for her broken state of mind.
But in response to Manning\'s treatment, 2011 of military investigations will reveal the opposite: at Quantico, Manning is on a daily basis at 6-by-8-
For nearly nine months, most of the foot cells were used to prevent injuries. O. I.
A United Nations special rapporteur later said that this could be referred to as torture in this case. While on P. O. I.
Look, Manning is wearing a white nylon dress called \"suicide overalls\", and it is almost impossible to screw into the lasso.
She had no pillows and no sheets.
She was asked to make regular oral confirmation on the day of her O. K. (
After the investigation, the military ordered the closure of Quantico\'s entire pre-trial prison area. )
This spring, when I asked Manning to describe the situation, she answered in the present tense.
\"The mood may be stronger,\" she said . \"
\"They don\'t have any versions.
Harsh comments from the guards \"-
Her gender is usually a joke.
\"You can go. Completely off.
I know I sometimes stand in my cell and have nowhere to go and pace with anger and frustration.
\"It\'s just stewing in your body and you\'re helpless,\" she went on . \".
\"I just started yelling at anyone or singing at the top of my lungs.
But Manning occasionally receives visitors from outside, and her aunt has also come to the bar.
Manning told me, \"even though it\'s behind the plexiglass window, we can\'t talk without the recording equipment, which is one of the most powerful meetings I \'ve ever attended.
They whispered to each other.
\"We love you,\" her aunt told her . \". “We miss you.
\"They plan to hire an independent lawyer, eventually choosing David Combs, in his 40 s, a strong lawyer who has served in the Army judge\'s defense command unit for more than a decade.
Manning\'s treatment in Kuwait and Quantico has begun to be filtered out to the legal status of the Lawrence Tribe and Kwame Anthony Appia, who signed an open letter, criticize what they call \"illegal and immoral conditions \".
\"In the spring of 2011, the government again transferred Manning to the United Regional corrections agency in the Midwest of livinfort.
She was released into the general population in Kansas;
Manning recalled, \"It was a huge shock to the system because I was handcuffed no matter where I went, in a small room or in a cage.
\"In prison, the prisoner didn\'t need to work, so she spent some time in the library helping Combs and his assistant prepare her case.
She faces an alarming number of violations, 22 in total, from bypassing security mechanisms to helping the enemy, which brings the possibility of living in prison.
That spring, Manning moved to a civilian prison outside Fort Myers, Maryland, where he spent two months arguing with government lawyers, highlighted the widespread \"violation\" of Manning\'s unit and the poor security protocols that exist in her SCIF.
He finally thinks Manning\'s gender anxiety
No treatment from the Army-
It may affect Manning\'s mental ability and judgment.
A few days later, the judge found Manning guilty of both charges.
Manning was exempt from conviction for helping the enemy and avoided life imprisonment.
Manning told me that she was relieved, not only for obvious reasons: she was worriedthe-
The enemy\'s charges will set a terrible precedent for suing the whistle. blowers.
\"I am still concerned about how the charge has been abused,\" Manning said . \".
She herself decided not to disclose her gender identity in court.
Martial, worried that this would complicate trials that are already difficult to deal.
But after hearing testimony from Lauren McNamara, a transgender friend who testified at the sentencing hearing, she found herself at a turning point.
\"I\'m tired of pretending,\" she told me . \".
She wrote a statement calling herself Chelsea, the name she used as a child in the Sims video game. On Aug.
On the 22nd, David Combs appeared on NBC\'s \"Today\" program. The co-
Moderator Savannah grisley read from the statement: \"As I move into the next phase of my life, I want everyone to know who I really am.
I\'m Chelsea Manning. I am female.
Manning did not see the clip, nor did he see the reaction to it.
She was on a plane to the American disciplinary camp in Leavenworth. The U. S. D. B.
Located at the northernmost end of Fort Leavenworth, it is not far from the 40 th military police detention and resettlement camp headquarters. The maximum-
The security building, which has 515 beds, is reserved for military prisoners who have served the longest sentence, to accommodate criminals like Robert bag, on the army convicted of the massacre of 16 Afghan civilians in 2013
For almost the entire time there, Manning lived on the second floor.
Her cell is narrow and small.
There is a bed, a toilet, a mirror and a sink.
A window faces north and she can see the scenery around her.
In the vacuum of the prison, the weather turned into a theater: snow piled up on the whirlwind fence.
Cross-shaped lightning crawling through the sky, allowing deer and rabbits to look around for cover.
In Manning\'s court.
Martial, Coombs, presented as evidence a photo of his client sending an email to his superior on 2010.
The photo was later distributed to the news media, and by the fall of 2013 it appeared along with hundreds of articles from Manning\'s transition period.
For Manning, the idea that she should be defined is painful.
\"It\'s a far cry from her experience in Leavenworth,\" Evan Greer, a cross-party activist and friend, told me.
\"I think some people saw the image, the sweet wig, and felt that she was free in prison.
\"In fact, every aspect of Manning\'s appearance is bound by the rules of the Army, from her panties to the hair she was asked to wear, every 670 knots-
Military regulations in a \"neat and conservative style.
\"Manning is in a position. it may be difficult.
Trans understand: she is female, but she is still considered male --
The staff of Leavenworth often said sharply.
Vincent Ward, one of Manning\'s lawyers, recalled that he observed the way the prison guards treated his client.
Former military lawyer Ward says he knows \"who are these people \".
I know the type of character.
From the moment you walk in, you can feel bullying, smirk and comments.
\"This is an isolation that can cause strenuous action: clinical psychologists who work with cross-prisoners record high levels of suicide and depression among prisoners who have not been given proper treatment. In worst-
In the case, the prisoner tried to change his genitals with his hand.
For friends and members of her legal team, Manning often says in desperation that the testosterone in her body and a phantom stealth are \"poisoned: what\'s the use of life if people don\'t see what she really looks like?
After entering the United StatesS. D. B.
In 2013, Manning requested treatment for estrogen and anti-estrogen
Male hormone drugs for men treatedto-
Female transition.
She was rejected: the army has yet to approve hormone therapy for soldiers, not to mention hormone therapy for prisoners.
Manning\'s treatment will be limited to taking anti-depression and counselling with a therapist. “Permitting Mr.
Manning lives as a woman, not to mention beginning to feminize his body, and as the prisoner group responds to these changes, he will pose operational challenges, \"Prison administrators wrote in an internal memo later obtained. C. L. U.
The prison has maintained an indomitable posture for nearly a year.
At the same time, a lawyer for Manning
He\'s also a trans Chase Strangio himself.
Growing concern that his clients may hurt themselves again;
Eventually, he filed a lawsuit with the Ministry of Defense.
The lawsuit cites the clinical evaluation of psychologist Randi eTouch and says Manning \"has experienced severe pain and is at high risk of serious medical consequences, including self-
Castrated and suicide
In the summer of 2014, the Army agreed to send lingerie to Manning\'s cell --
For the first time for any military department. (
A civil judge in Leavenworth County approved Manning\'s request to change the name on her birth certificate to Chelsea Elizabeth Manning. )
Hormone therapy was subsequently performed in early 2015, which was distributed in pill form from a medical pharmacy near the cafeteria.
For Manning, the early stages of hormone therapy were very satisfying: her skin became soft and her body hair became thinner.
However, with gratifying physical changes, the change of intelligence is disturbing.
\"Since my teens, I have built all these defenses and walls around my emotions,\" Manning told me . \".
\"When my testosterone levels drop, my mood suddenly becomes more vulnerable.
I can no longer just hide my emotions: I have to deal with them, usually there.
The mood tends to be faster than Manning can handle: \"good, like confidence, connections with my friends, and a lot of bad things like doubt, loneliness, uncertainty, and loss.
In order to gain support, Manning regularly talks with others across the community: Cross-artist and activist Strangio and Annie Danger.
Danger told me that when Manning did the experiment with her voice, she listened, \"to find out what feels right, put it in a different tone . \".
\"I\'m trying to convince her through the search process, the evolution process, which can be very important.
You really found your voice. ”At the U. S. D. B.
Manning\'s day was very ordinary and calm.
Most mornings, she wakes up at 4: 30 in the morning. m.
And, shrugging, wearing the light of a bare bulb hanging on her bed: a white sports bra;
Oversized prison uniform hanging, Scarecrow
Like her thin frame. the Army-issue boots. “O. K.
She will look at herself in the mirror and say.
\"You can do that.
\"After a quick breakfast at the cafeteria, she and a group of prisoners started building furniture for sale at the base canteen from scratch.
At the invitation of another prisoner, she participated in the weekly Dragon & dungeon game, playing the female nobility esville dunlong.
Manning told me that even if she was crossing the border, she never felt the physical threats of other prisoners like the staff.
She said, \"in all my experiences during my government detention, people who have been good to me are other prisoners --
I am not saying that they are excited, happy or approved of me or anything else.
Manning said she counted a number of prisoners among her close friends, including the Army platoon leader Clint Lorens, who was convicted of second place.
Ordered his soldiers to open fire on three unarmed Afghan civilians, a murder.
\"Keep in mind that all of these people were active duty before they were imprisoned,\" David Hammond, counsel assigned to Manning by the army\'s defense appeals department, said in describing this dynamic to me.
\"Discipline has passed.
On April 2014, the army rejected Manning\'s application for leniency and chose to give full support to her children under the age of 35. year sentence.
The possibility of a presidential pardon or reduction of sentence is still far away, but Manning has no reason to expect a pardon or a reduction: both the White House and Secretary of State Hillary Clinton have condemned the leak.
The best option, Manning knows, is a formal appeal.
But Manning\'s struggle with the prison authorities has lasted until the third year, and she is already tired.
Her hair is still being cut according to male standards.
The guards showed no mercy.
\"If you try to make them more neutral, they will emphasize very specific gender,\" Manning said . \".
Remain silent on the requirement to redistribute sex surgery. (
According to Manning\'s lawyer, the Army approved the operation on last September, but did not set a timetable for the completion of the operation. )The U. S. D. B.
In her view, \"it is often intentional and deliberate to create situations that cause high pressure to any particular number of people.
This has caused people to collapse.
The good guys are broken.
In July 2016, Manning was one of the closest friends in the United States. S. D. B.
Anthony rabbi sat on a bench in the embroidery shop, sewing designer tapes for the recruits, and a prisoner dropped a note on the table.
\"It was from your girlfriend,\" said the man.
The rabbi did not have to ask who the man was referring.
Rabbi, a former Army expert who served for 30 years for raping a young child, first met Manning in 2013, when she had just arrived in the United States. S. D. B.
This is the first time he met a transgender.
Manning was like a \"sad, strange little guy\", he recalls \".
In a letter from the United StatesS. D. B.
Raby wrote: \"There are people who think they are a gender, not the gender they were born with, and it\'s like thinking that a chicken is a hat.
I just don\'t understand.
However, as a Christian, I fully believe in expressing love and compassion to everyone, so we talked about it.
The rabbi admires Manning\'s wisdom, her wit, and her unapologetic quirk.
\"I feel good about this strange feeling,\" Raby wrote . \".
Manning often goes to his cell to talk, vent or cry
Be careful not to stay too long and violate the prison policy of one person to the unit.
Rabbi, more than anyone else in the United States. S. D. B.
It seems to understand the damage caused by imprisonment to Manning.
\"For people who really have actual emotions other than hate, anger, pain, indifference or indifference, the prison is not the best place,\" he wrote . \".
Now the thing he\'s most worried about is confirmed.
Raby unfurled the note, which was folded and sealed with a spare adhesive on the stamp book, read the title: \"Chelsea E.
My last letter.
He scanned the first page.
Manning wrote that she would commit suicide after the fireworks display at the base on July 4.
Fireworks end at 10 in the evening. m.
It\'s already 12: 25. m.
The rabbi informed a guard at the embroidery shop and handed Manning\'s letter to him. “About 1 a. m.
\"I heard the guard radio announcement that there was an alarm in Manning\'s housing department,\" Raby told me . \".
\"I paced like a madman, sure they didn\'t find her in time.
The rabbi did not want to provoke the staff and he tried to keep calm. Around 3:30 a. m.
An Army investigator approached him: Manning is still alive.
Officials declined to give details of the incident, and Manning told me that she only remembered waking up in an ambulance.
But people familiar with the matter said Manning tried to hang himself, but after being found by the guards, he was not breathing well but was slow to respond.
Manning told me that she felt extremely low and lonely during the days before her suicide.
She has made up her mind to stick to the end of the long weekend when her psychologist will return to the base.
\"I didn\'t succeed,\" she said . \".
In early September, she began a hunger strike to protest what she described as \"ongoing and excessive administrative scrutiny by prison and military officials \".
When the prison vowed to provide her with sex, she ended her hunger strike.
Rescheduled surgery for an unprecedented stay.
By the end of September, Manning was sentenced to two more weeks in solitary confinement, suspended for one week.
Her crime is a threat to the order of the barracks.
She committed suicide.
If, as Manning said, the prison made her feel like a ghost
Live in the thoughts of her supporters, but not physically with them
Then she is like erasing at a separate time.
Isolate \"change you;
It makes you angry, \"she said.
\"You\'re starting to forget the world outside --
It is no longer relevant or related.
The darkest part of solitary confinement is that you start to forget about cars, work, family, weather, politicians, and all the things that make up society.
Manning tried to commit suicide again, but a guard found her before she became unconscious.
A week later, she returned to the general crowd.
She was overwhelmed by anger and fear.
She told me that she is also likely to have a post-
Trauma Stress Disorder
From Iraq, from Quantico.
When Manning was alone for the second time, she experienced an incident that the army had not recorded, and after the attempted suicide, it seemed to foreshadow serious mental distress.
In a legal brief, Manning details a vivid fever dream that she is still confused about
Hear \"several reports of suppression or silent shooting from a pistol\" and listen to a group of strangers describing their plans to take her away from the United StatesS. D. B.
She said she refused to leave her cell and the next morning the staff went on to work as if nothing had happened.
For Manning\'s lawyers, it is clear that their clients are running out of time.
\"Chelsea need help but she didn\'t get it,\" Strangio told me this winter . \".
He believes that the application for reduction of sentence submitted in November is Manning\'s greatest hope.
In the petition, Manning\'s lawyer attached a letter from Manning.
\"I\'m not Bradley Manning,\" she wrote . \".
\"I really never did.
I am Chelsea Manning, a proud transgender, and through this application she respectfully requests the first chance of life.
\"On the afternoon of January.
On the 17 th, Manning was in the workshop of the prison, covered with shaved flowers.
She remembered looking up and seeing a team of security guards entering the room.
\"I think, oh God, I \'ve had a lot of trouble,\" Manning told me . \".
\"I don\'t even know what I\'m doing now.
The head of security at the prison told her to go with them.
\"Am I back? ” she asked.
No one told her.
She grabbed her stuff and followed the guard to the special housing unit.
Assuming she was going back to being lonely, she began to take her shoelaces out of her boots.
The leading official shook her head: she was moving towards protective detention.
Cnn TV shows are broadcast in public areas.
She saw the banner on the screen: it said Manning\'s reduction of sentence.
Manning told me she was numb.
She never let herself think about reducing her sentence, lest she be thrown back into the dark.
\"I have a hard time dealing with this,\" Manning recalls . \".
Mr. Obama then made implicit accusations against Edward Snowden and Julian Assange.
\"Let\'s be clear: Chelsea Manning has been sentenced to severe imprisonment, so ordinary people who want to disclose important confidential information will think it is punishable, I don\'t think Chelsea Manning\'s decision will make such an impression, \"he said.
Four months later, on the morning of May 17, Manning was driven out of the front door of the United States. S. D. B.
Into a Ford Explorer.
The driver is driving the car. U. V.
Along a small slope, along a curved road winding south, through the gates of the United States, which are overgrown. S. D. B.
14 executed German prisoners of war were buried on 1945.
A group of brick buildings appeared in the distance. Close to 1 a. m.
The Explorer stopped at a parking lot where Strangio and senior lawyer Nancy holander waited.
Manning was so eager to hug the two lawyers that she hit Strangio\'s face with her elbow.
The week I spent with Manning in New York feels like a pause animation moment: the days between the chaos of her previous life and everything that follows.
In her last months in AmericaS. D. B.
Manning wrote a memoir of 300 pages, and she has hired an agent to buy drafts around.
This fall, she will appear in a documentary titled \"XY Chelsea\" produced by Laura portras.
At the same time, her lawyer continued to deal with her appeal.
Even if she is acquitted, it is difficult to know how comfortable her life will be in the coming years, as some countries may never accept what she has done.
But she was determined not to stay on her reputation, and she seemed happy and free during the week in Manhattan.
We trudged through the busy city streets and were not noticed, we ordered chicken nuggets at McDonald\'s, ate at restaurants and cafes, and went to the screening of Alien: Covenant on weekends.
\"On the way to the theater, the person who collected the tickets asked to check Manning\'s bag.
I held my breath and thought she would be recognized.
But Manning pulled the zipper in the main compartment and revealed her laptop.
She was blown by the famous whistle.
Bloor and former military prisoners became another prisoner on Sunday night.
It occurred to me that if Manning sometimes seemed difficult to explain the impact of her actions on the world, which was partly the result of the extreme isolation she experienced before her arrest, in the childhood of the new moon, when she is eager to solve her pain.
Later, living alone in Kuwait or Quantico, or in special housing units in the United StatesS. D. B.
, This isolation is real: the \"feedback loop\" She and I mentioned has been torn apart.
Now that she has the ability to live openly and openly as she has always known, she is adapting to the idea and falling into it as if it were a cold pond.
More than once, when we were walking down the streets of New York, I felt like I was completely alive for the first time in front of someone.
Manning told me that she understood that her identity and behavior that led to her arrest had long been entangled in public imagination, sometimes in an uncomfortable way: an appeal brief filed last year by Manning\'s legal team suggested that the army\'s inability to treat Manning\'s gender anxiety was a reason for the leak.
Manning didn\'t want to discuss \"assumptions\" about what would happen if things were different, but she insisted on one thing: \"What I can tell you is,\" she said, \"My values are the same.
The things I care about will be the same.
One morning, at the end of the interview, Manning handed me a white envelope.
It\'s a 14-year-old trans boy.
\"I just want to say, I\'m glad you\'ll be free in a few months,\" the boy scribbled with a pen, \"and I\'m proud of you (
Is that strange to say? ).
You are the source of inspiration.
Manning put the note back in the envelope.
She said she never particularly wanted to be an example if she was honest.
I asked if there would be a difference in her life if Manning had such a person.
She stared down at her hand.
\"I don\'t know what to do,\" she said in the end, \"but it would be better.
A few days later, we sat on the park bench for an hour.
The sky was bruised, but the air was warm and fragrant.
There are a group of pigeons nearby.
Manning muttered to them.
She told me that in Leavenworth, shortly before she learned of the commutation, a Robin got out of her window, a little messenger from the outside world.
Isn\'t this a sign?
She took it as one.
Other credits: Hair color: Andre vivisos.
Hair: Christian
Make-up: Fulvia farlafite.
DingTalk: Okusa Rieko.
Clothes: Gabriela Hearst and Brandon Maxwell.